If you act out before someone you know passes without knowing they were going to pass, your subconscious may be trying to give you a sign or preparing yourself for the hurt to come.
“Remember when I was super upset before dad passed?”
“Yes! That had to be a sign, that might be normal for someone acting out before a passing of someone”
Boys who enjoy yaoi (a genre in Japan that contains sexual and/or romantic relations between two men); literally translates to "rotten boy"; corresponding female : fujoshi