Hey Julie, I was watching like, this show about dudes that hit each other with leather whips and car keys...they dig pain because it gives them boners. I think they are called masicists.
churchhurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the churchhurt that was inflicted on me as a child.