medicine seller in japanese (薬売り). or, it could also mean the kusuriuri from mononoke, the dude who slays evil spirits and poses as a medicine seller, most probably also a kitsune. (you should go watch it on youtube, its a peak anime.)
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.