The phrase all of us say when we make regrets after regrets after regrets. Especially when those regrets bite us in the ass HARD. More likely to say it, and with more passion, especially when the consequences of your regrets are spelt out for you right in front of your face.
Something mentally ill people type into the Google searchbar from time to time because they feel an intense sense of desperation and hopelessness but don't think it's serious enough to tell an actual human being.
Should I call a suicide hotline? Nah, I'll just look up "I want to fucking die" and see if a mass mediacorporation has any answers for me.