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Dissociation 

Dissociating is one of the most common responses to abuse and trauma. It involves feeling numb, detached or unreal and (while it happens to everyone once in a while) is experienced more frequently and severely in survivors. Dissociating people vary widely in symptoms and may experience any or all things from the following list.

Types of dissociation:

Depersonalisation

Common: “I feel strange / weird”, “I felt as if I was floating away”, “I felt disembodied / disconnected / detached / far away from myself”, “apart from everything”, “in a place of my own / alone”, “like I was there but not there”, “I could see and hear everything but couldn’t respond”.

Derealisation

“My surroundings seem unreal / far away”, “i felt spaced out”, “it was like looking at the world through a veil or glass”, “i felt cut off or distant from the immediate surroundings”, “objects appeared diminished in size / flat / dream-like / cartoon like / artificial / unsolid”.

Other dissociative symptoms:

Memory: “I drove the car home / got dressed / had dinner but can’t remember anything about it”, “I don’t who I am or how I got here” (fugue state), “ I remember things but it doesn’t feel like it was me that was there”.

Identity: “I feel like I’m two seperate people/someone else”.

Other: “I felt like Time was passing incredibly slow/quickly”, “I get so absorbed in a fantasy/TV programme that it seems real”, “I felt an emptiness in my head as if I was not having any thoughts at all”.
You may experiencing dissociation if you:

-find yourself staring at one spot, not thinking anything
-feel completely numb
-feel like you’re not really in your body, like you’re watching yourself in a movie
-feel suddenly lightheaded or dizzy
- lost the plot of the show or conversation you were focused on
- feel as if you’re not quite real, like you’re in a dream
- feel like you’re floating

-suddenly feel like you’re not a part of the world around you
-feel detached and far away from other people, who may seem mechanical or unreal to you
-are very startled when someone/something gets your attention completely forget what you were thinking just a moment ago

-suddenly cover your face or react as if you’re about it be hurt for no reason
- can’t remember important information about yourself, like your age or where you live
-find yourself rocking back and forth
-become very focused on a small or trivial object or event
-find that voices, sounds or writing seem far away and you sometimes have trouble understanding them
-feel as if you’ve just experienced a flashback (perhaps rapidally) but you can’t remember anything about it
-perceive your body as foreign or not belonging to you
Dissociation by Coladasfae December 9, 2017

Dissociative Identity Disorder 

Formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. Dissociative Identity Disorder is a complex dissociative disorder characterized by the presence of two or more distinct personality states with amnesia between them. Each personality is it's own individual person and may have different names, memories, personal histories, and characteristics.

It is currently believed that DID forms due to structural dissociation. When humans are below the ages of 7-9, we do not have a stable or integrated self/personality, and instead have parts. There is a part that craves love, a part that wants food, a part that is sad, etc etc. (This is why babies will go from crying to laughing in seemingly a few seconds.) When we reach the age of roughly 7-9, these parts, along with our experiences will integrate into one, whole personality. However, if a child experiences severe and repetitive trauma before this age, and does not have stable relationships with their primary caregivers (Parent(s), etc) then the brain will put up amnesic walls as a way to protect itself from the memories of the terrible things that have/are happening, and these walls prevent the personality from integrating, which results in the parts staying separate.

Contrary to popular belief and media representation, people with DID are not evil, nor dangerous. They are traumatized individuals who are more likely to hurt themselves than anyone else, and many have gone on to live happy, successful lives.
"Did you hear about Mary? She was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder."

(This definition was written by someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder.)

Dissociative identity disorder 

Formerly known as "multiple personality disorder" and/or "split personality", DID is a severe mental illness in which the person has two or more distinct personalities, which form entirely different memories and characteristics. Commonly confused with schizophrenia.
Dissociative identity disorder is extremely difficult to treat.

Weed Dissociation

If you're sober and you feel any of the following :

- Feels like everything is a movie
- Feels like you are watching everything happen

- Feels like something is missing in your thoughts
- Feeling very worried

- Feels like your eyes are sensitive to light

- Feels like you see purple of images of lights, like when you look at the sun for too long

You smoked too much, you have to lay off for a few days, you are dissociating. If you are stoned and you feel these, that is normal. The dissociation effect is just the head effects of weed staying with you, but that feel good sensation is gone. That's why you have the symptoms of being high, even thought you aren't high. So you're good. Think of it like you smoked a lot and you're just still high. Sleep it off and in a few days, you'll be set. Drink lots of water.

DO NOT SMOKE WHILE THESE EFFECTS LINGER, THEY WILL ONLY WORSEN.
Chad: Dude, I heard that Josh got Weed Dissociation after smoking his entire stash. Now he's gonna lay off for a week.

Brad: That is actually wild, bro.

Telefantastic Dissociative Delusional Disorder 

Unlike Truman Show Delusion sufferers who see themselves as being the unwitting main character in a reality TV show, Telefantastic Dissociative Delusional Disorder sufferers see their life as being full-blown scripted, expensive serialised drama TV Series. They frame each year of their life as being a 'season', each week roughly equating to a single 'episode' of their show.

The sufferer twists known facts and does mental gymnastics to shoehorn their mundane lives into some form of 'season arc' for their character.

They know full well that they aren't really in a TV show. - they just desperately want to be.

Ultimately, Telefantastic Dissociative Delusional Disorder is just a tactic employed by the miserable to deny reality - those who know deep down that the only way their life can have meaning is not through art or expression, giving and charity, a relationship with God but instead by forcibly contextualising everything as being a carefully scripted, story-boarded and rehearsed piece of fiction to be consumed by only the sufferer themselves.

The sufferer inevitably commits suicide or dies in their 'series finale' - Whether their TV Series achieved excellence and a satisfactory conclusion (Breaking Bad), was cancelled before its time and fondly remembered (Party Down), went seasons too long and became a shadow of itself (The Simpsons), (Dexter) can only be determined by the dead sufferer's friends and family at the funeral.
Q; "What's wrong with Caleb? He said he hadn't seen me since 'Season 2', and that he thought I'd been written out, whatever that means?

A: "Dude yeah he's got Telefantastic Dissociative Delusional Disorder' - just nod and smile. He'll kill himself if he thinks his show might be getting cancelled or resorting to cheap plot twists"

Dissociative Identity Disorder 

DID is a complex and quite rare condition where more than one personality exists within you. You may in fact be unaware of this and usually other people will tell you of your other identities. Each identity within you has their own pattern of thinking and behaving, and this may be quite different from your own established patterns. In fact, each separate personality controls your behaviours and thoughts at the times they are present.

Dissociation is a mental process of disconnecting from your thoughts, feelings, memories or sense of identity.

The causes of DID are as complex as the condition, but mental health professionals agree that ongoing trauma in childhood is the leading contributor. The trauma causes the child to “disconnect” from what is happening to them during the times of extreme stress. Trauma can include repeated emotional, physical or sexual abuse that usually begins before a child is five years of age, and during that time there is no adult around who provides comfort or safety.

Children remain dissociated into their teens and adulthood. This can lead to other problems as they struggle to make sense of the world around them.

If you have DID, you may experience depression, mood swings, anxiety and panic attacks, suicidal thoughts and feelings, self-harm, headaches, hearing voices, sleep disorders, phobias, alcohol and drug abuse, obsessive-compulsive behaviour and various physical health problems.
Treatment for DID is based on your personal needs and aspirations. It can take time working with a specialist in DID care to make progress and help you achieve your goals, but you can achieve significant progress in taking control of your life.

Signs to look for (symptoms)
Things you may feel include:

Feeling disconnected from your emotions (emotionally numb).
Feeling detached from what is happening around you, like you are watching a movie of yourself.
Feeling as though the world is distorted or not real.

Having problems remembering things, and having gaps in your memory (losing time).
Sudden and unexpected shifts in mood, eg, feeling very sad for no reason.
Hearing voices, or smelling or seeing things that only you can see or smell.
Feeling as though there are different people inside you.
Referring to yourself as “we”.
Being unable to recognise yourself in a mirror.
Significant memory lapses such as forgetting important personal information.
Knowing about things you don’t remember learning, like driving.
Not recognising places or people that others think you should.
It’s often those nearest people experiencing DID who will see signs that the person they are currently talking to does not have the same personality and mannerisms that the person they were speaking to yesterday, or that morning, or even a few moments ago had.

Dissociative Identity Disorder is not to be confused with Multiple personality Disorder.

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