A strong mixed
emotion of astonishment and inadequacy due to one's own subpar execution or experience regarding
something of which they can relate and have witnessed in amazement
yet cannot attain or duplicate.
I was once inspired to write a screenplay for a movie, yet when I saw "_____" I was so aweshamed I could not
bear to continue.
He saw her 10 years later with his
old high school friend; they were hand in
hand. She looked better than ever and he was aweshamed of what he once lost.