A strong mixed emotion of astonishment and
inadequacy due to one's own subpar execution or
experience regarding
something of which they can relate and have witnessed in amazement yet cannot attain or duplicate.
I was once inspired to write a screenplay for a movie, yet when I saw "_____" I was so aweshamed I could not bear to continue.
He saw her 10 years later with his old high
school friend; they were
hand in hand. She looked
better than ever and he was aweshamed of what he once lost.