The actions and emotions a person shows when they are on the toilet and trying to shit something big...and it hurts. Similar to the emotions and actions while preparing for a roller coaster dive with the rejoicing hand raise at the end (woohoo!).
churchhurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the churchhurt that was inflicted on me as a child.