melandonia- The depressing, hopeless feeling of losing someone you
love, forever. Whether it be a friend that has been cut out of your life, or a loved one who is now but a memory. This feeling hits you with the realization
like a
train, and once it happens there is no turning back, there is only “brace for impact.” The pain is so apparent that it is no longer a feeling but an entity begging for attention, a habit that must be satisfied. Your life prior to this loss is over, and your
future is forever changed, for the worse. Coping is not an option, it is not pleasant, you must drag on miserably until there is no one left to remember the one you loved, or
even you.
The melandonia was much worse at
night, with the gaping hole of loss in my chest and nothing
left but
darkness to swallow me, I truly understood what loss was.