Its one
thing to self-conscious (most people are at least some of the
time) about what people think of you, everything from what you look like to your abilities at different things. Its another thing to be desperate all the
time to convince other people you never get embarrassed or self conscious and don't care what anybody thinks of you all to keep people around you so that you're never alone, because you
hate being alone, and you know damn well you care more than most what people think of you.
There's nothing unusual about getting self-conscious, since even if you try to do
everything perfect, its not gonna be
perfect, and you're gonna do some human shit and you're not gonna feel proud of what you did. The most self conscious people in the world are the ones that keep telling you they don't care what anybody thinks of them.