Being social but nobody really being social with you so you try to be funny and all the attempts fail and you get cancelled over and over again until someone cares about you.
You try to stand up for yourself and just end up worse than before.
You want to leave people but you are still wanting some sort of care or attention in your life.
Life always gives you lemons,and when you try to make lemonade it's turns bitter.
Fogey/fogy /fougi/ sl. (early 18C+, orig. Scot) old-fashioned, stuck-in-the mud.
Person with old fashioned ideas which he is unwilling to change: Come to the disco and stop being such an old fogey!
You think me an old fogeyand an old tory, his thoughtful voice said. I saw three generations since O’Connel’s time. I remember the famine. Do you know that the orange lodges agitated for repeal of the union twenty years before O’Connel did or before the prelates of your communion denounced him as a demagogue? You fenians forget some things. (James Joyce, Ulysses. Penguin Books,1992. p. 38)