She's always been left and wants to be alone. But alone with someone who she really cares about. She misses this special person but she knows that they were better off alone to grow and move forward. She keeps resisting and holding back herself from talking to this person. She badly missed him a lot.
Someone who is addicted to obtaining money and building wealth. A money addict and fanatic. Breadheads often work more than one full-time job, and some even participate in illicit activities to "obtain the bread".