Muckle: Noun 1. muckle - (often followed by `of') a large number or amount or extent; large indefinite amount, large indefinite quantity - an indefinite quantity that is above the average in size or magnitude.
Berry: This is an ancient English surname of topographic or locational origin. It derives either from the pre 7th century 'byrig', meaning 'a fortified place' or the later 'beri', or 'buri' denoting a fortified manor house.
churchhurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the churchhurt that was inflicted on me as a child.