hey, it will all get better kay? just because u
don't see the end doesn't mean there isn't one. talk to someone u trust or someone who u know wont betray u. if u don't have someone, try joining friendly online servers to talk to someone but do be cautious. hug a pillow
sometimes if u can't get a hug, it helps a lot.
don't hurt yourself, u don't deserve it even if u think u do. u deserve a better time :)