it amazes me again and again
how it is even possible to attend a gathering of
people,
music playing, drinks, laughter, posing and vogueing, talking and gawking, smoking and choking, having drinks and believing for a minute the illusion that here is a safe place. No they talk about you to someone just like they talk about them to you. some are mean,
sad, insecure or clueless. some need reassurrance, some want popularity and theyll do whatever it takes to have it, some like to hear themselves talking but need you to not look
awkward.
but yeah, drinking helps to totally dive into this theatre and be like them.
I went to a party as an
adult and came back as a temporary
mess. It was one of the loneliest experiences in a long time. Lonelier than being
alone. When i am surrounded by strangers, who am i?