This is used to describe an
extreme level of suffering and going through it, only you start out
living a good life but as you get older you only decline and are heading to rock
bottom.
Lisa " I cannot believe I used to drive a jaguar and have all the
money I wanted and more."
Kelley "but John told me he saw your bank account and you had 39,
999 dollars just sitting in the bank?" What's up with this grief show?
Lisa " I promise you that I am just over losing
everything. I am definitely suffering backwards"
Kelley "...and back again" bless your heart.