yahnissi
my dearest * how i wish i never met you. all my life, i waited in silence for a face i could not name, and then you appeared, the angel hidden behind the veil of sleep. when i saw you, i couldn’t believe it. i had found you, but my heartso fragile, so trembling, could not speak the truth it had carried through lifetimes. how could i speak to you, when we were strangers and only one of us remembered? how foolish i would have seemed, to say my soul had met yours long before this world, to claim i knew you like the sky knows the stars. but you had forgotten. was it not god’s will we meet again? was this not the echo of a vow once sworn in light? but someone else won. many came before, and still, none held your heart. i waited. i watched. i believed we would end together, you for me, and i for you. then we became friends, and it was more than anything i’d known. no bond matched it. the world faded. only you, my divine friend. even the angels rejoiced at what we shared. and then, i ruined it. i made the mistake knowingly, believing i was unworthy, how could i, dust and doubt, deserve someone divine? and so it ended. i still see your face, the moment you knew. my heart never stopped breaking. your name lived in my dreams, your voice, your presence. and for a moment, god gave you back. we had our date. it was soft, perfect. a dream made real. when you left my car, i felt the ache of eternity. i miss you. and i wish i never met you – because in meeting you, i lost my faith in destiny
yahnissi by luosgnirednawa May 13, 2025
