Simply put, it's a fetish that you recently found and haven't accepted in your sexuality. Yet.
You: man the other day I was looking for things that tickle my fancy and I stumbled upon some lolicon...
Friend: and what happened?
You: before I knew, I was rock-hard. I feel so fucked up
Friend: as long as you don't molest real-life kids, I don't see the problem
Fogey/fogy /fougi/ sl. (early 18C+, orig. Scot) old-fashioned, stuck-in-the mud.
Person with old fashioned ideas which he is unwilling to change: Come to the disco and stop being such an old fogey!
You think me an old fogeyand an old tory, his thoughtful voice said. I saw three generations since O’Connel’s time. I remember the famine. Do you know that the orange lodges agitated for repeal of the union twenty years before O’Connel did or before the prelates of your communion denounced him as a demagogue? You fenians forget some things. (James Joyce, Ulysses. Penguin Books,1992. p. 38)