oh wow, i met bemani ruler! he plays at FYE at the liberty tree mall or the salem willows during the summer/good weather. he is one of the most recognized and best bemani players out there. he goes by the name john. he use to run DDRMANIAX.net but now is retired. he plays at the goodtimes emporium alot which is said to be around where he lives.
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.