it amazes me again and again
how it is
even possible to attend a gathering of people,
music playing, drinks, laughter, posing and vogueing, talking and gawking, smoking and choking, having drinks and believing for a minute the illusion that here is a safe place. No they talk about you to someone just like they talk about them to you. some are mean,
sad, insecure or clueless. some need reassurrance, some want popularity and theyll do whatever it takes to have it, some like to hear themselves talking but need you to not look
awkward.
but yeah, drinking helps to totally dive into this theatre and be like them.
I went to a party as an
adult and
came back as a temporary mess. It was one of the loneliest experiences in a long
time. Lonelier than being alone. When i am surrounded by strangers, who am i?