When i first met Carl i did not have a clue about what i was
getting into. Nor could i even imagine what feelings i was capable of. What started off as uncommitted fun flirty superficial playtime slowly turned into hard up and down angels and demons tragic beauty painful bliss. I won't go into detail but Carl surely had a huge impact on me and the way i see things.
Maybe i was too immature to appreciate him, too scared of
getting hurt, too insecure, too too too
What i know now is that Carl was
the best thing ever happened to me (along with my beautiful kids), the time was not right, our minds were not ripe, it made me refuse to ever say goodbye.