When you are in the act of trying to play gay in the gym showers, and get held down and the man behind you gets hard and "accidently" goes inside you making you dookie yourself.
The maddening inability to feel romantic love for someone. All the while unknowingly longing for someone who you know will never feel the same. An try as you might. Every small flame of romance and lust you feel, will be overshadowed by the forest fire in the distance.
“Sometimes my mind is too full of goulasherious thoughts to even look forwards to new beginnings.”