If you ever felt like breaking something, injuring someone, or just straight up fucking shit up.
In Dying Days by As Blood Runs Black sings "Bring the mother fuckin ruckus!" At that point, you go apeshit and start fucking shit up until the breakdown, then you try not to die from headbanging so hard.
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.