My dearest love <3
If you ever find this please know i loved you more than ever. I wish you the best love and hope that in another universe you'll love me the way I love you. As of now we are young but one day i will tell of my admiration and love for you even if you may never return it. I shall continue to wish and yearn for a world where I could truly love you as you are. I wish you were a boy, my love.
If i were to die young, I wish for Anusga to smile at my grave.
Fogey/fogy /fougi/ sl. (early 18C+, orig. Scot) old-fashioned, stuck-in-the mud.
Person with old fashioned ideas which he is unwilling to change: Come to the disco and stop being such an old fogey!
You think me an old fogeyand an old tory, his thoughtful voice said. I saw three generations since O’Connel’s time. I remember the famine. Do you know that the orange lodges agitated for repeal of the union twenty years before O’Connel did or before the prelates of your communion denounced him as a demagogue? You fenians forget some things. (James Joyce, Ulysses. Penguin Books,1992. p. 38)
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.