TDS was defined this could also be the disrespectful soldier. Imagine you have that unconditional love you are looking for. You love everyone without the condition they love you back. Imagine it was your
destiny to be martyred for everyone by crucifixion. You carried out your
destiny to the point of being hung on a cross and you are suffering the worst torture you can imagine. Your faith is strong and you cry out to God: "Father, into Your Hands, I commit My Spirit." A soldier is coming to end your suffering with the spear of
destiny. The soldier says: "At first, I figured if you could last three days on the cross I would be satisfied. Then after watching you suffer a week it got easier to watch. So I moved it to a month and told myself I would be satisfied. Then Watching you suffer got easier and less satisfying. I started checking on you less frequently. I still cannot believe you are godlike
even though you have hung there for over two decades."
Disrespectful
people will never be satisfied because they believe Respect must be earned.
Nothing you ever do
will be enough to earn the respect of a disrespectful person.
This is a reoccurring dream I have had for the last 22 years. I have been both the soldier and Jesus in this dream. 90% of the
time I was the soldier and shoved the spear through the second rib from the bottom and broke the spearhead off.
