Stephen is apparently, in his own words, a
loser.
He will pretend to care about someone only to suddenly go cold on them for no discernible reason, and discard them without warning.
Instead of explaining his feelings or sympathising with those of the other person, he will simply blame anyone but himself and then treat you like he actually hates you, suggesting that everything prior wasn't
even real and was just an act.
Stephen is a good reminder of why I
don't trust
men and consider most of them to be pretty shallow and
mean. Sadly, most of the good memories I have of him are now overclouded by feelings of hurt and loss.
Stephen, I'm sorry you felt you had to avoid me. I would have been
happy staying friends but it seems you have moved somewhere else or vanished off the face of the earth or something.
Your friendship meant as much to me as anything else would have and I was lonely and
depressed for months afterwards because you weren't there anymore.
I even started hallucinating a few
men I'm pretty sure were not real. And one of them doesn't disappear or is there very often, which is very annoying because he is really annoying.
I would much rather see you than these
weird-ass, annoying hallucinations that have apparently taken your place.
You
may never see this, of course, and that's okay. I will probably eventually delete it, anyway.
I am doing my best to move on but the hallucination that's like a really
jackass version of you sure isn't helping with that.
