No good deed, goes UNPUNISHED.
One question haunts and hurts
Too much, too much to mention
Was I really seeking good
Or just seeking attention
Is that all good deads are
One question haunts and hurts
Too much, too much to mention
Was I really seeking good
Or just seeking attention
Is that all good deads are
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 03, 2023

Ghost moth
I'm nightwalking again. Not just awake but that's when I want to get in and actually do stuff. I didn't realise how much I didn't like the middle of the day until I started being back with people who track, conform to, and place value on living during certain hours.
I'm back in my old room, single bed and all. It's hard to adjust back to the way of life I had as a kid. I've grown too much. I've gained too much. I've seen too much.
The only way I'll survive is unseen and without leaving footprints.
I'm nightwalking again. Not just awake but that's when I want to get in and actually do stuff. I didn't realise how much I didn't like the middle of the day until I started being back with people who track, conform to, and place value on living during certain hours.
I'm back in my old room, single bed and all. It's hard to adjust back to the way of life I had as a kid. I've grown too much. I've gained too much. I've seen too much.
The only way I'll survive is unseen and without leaving footprints.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 03, 2023

I was never looking for a fairytale, just to feel a little less alone.
You have robbed me of all heart and mind and I love you sweet bandit of my soul.
I am no Judy, I am done with pie.
Will our garden be wonderphil, or will it be full of lost dreams and tea?
I do forgive you, but I demand more from life. It's your call: Friend or Wife?
You have robbed me of all heart and mind and I love you sweet bandit of my soul.
I am no Judy, I am done with pie.
Will our garden be wonderphil, or will it be full of lost dreams and tea?
I do forgive you, but I demand more from life. It's your call: Friend or Wife?
If this was just a sunset myth, the cost of enduring cruelty was worth the taste of my eternal flame.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 03, 2023

From who I was, to who I am,
I'm proud I've grown from where I began.
All that I tried, all that I lost,
I don't regret the hidden cost.
I'll hide away, repair and grow,
I wonder what path I'll choose to go.
I am strong, I am kind,
In every quest I seem to find.
Always late, but always there,
It's just the way I show my care.
That first hug, and stolen kiss,
I wish it didn't end like this.
A warrior, a hero too,
I will accomplish what I need to do.
You can't change who people are, without destroying who they were. In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions. It shows how even the smallest events can have a significant impact.
I'm proud I've grown from where I began.
All that I tried, all that I lost,
I don't regret the hidden cost.
I'll hide away, repair and grow,
I wonder what path I'll choose to go.
I am strong, I am kind,
In every quest I seem to find.
Always late, but always there,
It's just the way I show my care.
That first hug, and stolen kiss,
I wish it didn't end like this.
A warrior, a hero too,
I will accomplish what I need to do.
You can't change who people are, without destroying who they were. In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions. It shows how even the smallest events can have a significant impact.
Tindali is a butterfly in the family Lycaenidae. Although described as a lot darker, it's rather similar to philander.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 03, 2023

Pursuit towards the mural happiness of our kindred souls.
Illimitable possibilities as companions towards our journeys of discovery's.
Never-ending promise to cherish and love you for all that you are and will be.
Ohana with you forever, oh captain of my calm, together we conquer.
Panegyric words from you fill my soul with all the nourishment it needs.
Radical incidents prove our soul tie worthy, dishonour those who intervene.
Eccentric tendencies dare not hide between soulmates, we're safe here.
Journeymen United in our wandering, champions of Anam Cara.
Ebullient feelings within our mirrored souls ignite our passion.
Certain of our real wanting, I chase your safety, your freedom, as I am not til we.
Tt our bond greater than most, those who get bitten bite, those who don't give up rewarded
Submit to me, as I submit to you, I've seen you beg, apologise, and adore; I've seen you for you and I want more.
Dauntless pragma lovers, battle ready, to defend each other and continue their story.
Valu wildfires that flare in balanced configuration with the grace of koi mating
Outrageous initiation tales determine our biorhythm as our Love adventures strong with every audacity.
Illimitable possibilities as companions towards our journeys of discovery's.
Never-ending promise to cherish and love you for all that you are and will be.
Ohana with you forever, oh captain of my calm, together we conquer.
Panegyric words from you fill my soul with all the nourishment it needs.
Radical incidents prove our soul tie worthy, dishonour those who intervene.
Eccentric tendencies dare not hide between soulmates, we're safe here.
Journeymen United in our wandering, champions of Anam Cara.
Ebullient feelings within our mirrored souls ignite our passion.
Certain of our real wanting, I chase your safety, your freedom, as I am not til we.
Tt our bond greater than most, those who get bitten bite, those who don't give up rewarded
Submit to me, as I submit to you, I've seen you beg, apologise, and adore; I've seen you for you and I want more.
Dauntless pragma lovers, battle ready, to defend each other and continue their story.
Valu wildfires that flare in balanced configuration with the grace of koi mating
Outrageous initiation tales determine our biorhythm as our Love adventures strong with every audacity.
Although I'm glad it's available for those who need it, in my case, this interim disorder has caused havoc and ruined my life.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 13, 2023

I'll tell them I never wanted it.
I'll tell them who you are to me.
I'll tell them that I'm safe with you.
I'll tell them...
"That man is my husband, the one person that has always been there for me, the one person that has always kept me safe, the one person who has always helped me through everything... Is the one person I can't talk to. The person I need I'm not allowed to see..."
I'm sorry, we have a duty of care, our primary roll is to make sure you're safe, the severity of these allegations-
"Have you ever done ICE?"
No...
"Well then with all due respect, how can you be the judge on someone's character when you've never experienced what it's like on that day, that mindset-"
I may never have personally experienced it but I have seen, quite closely, the effects of the substance and am very aware of it's effects. I know this is disappointing to hear, but we can't just wave a magic wand and make it all disappear, even if you retract your statement the allegations and severity of the case is so extreme and we have a duty of care to you.
I'll tell them who you are to me.
I'll tell them that I'm safe with you.
I'll tell them...
"That man is my husband, the one person that has always been there for me, the one person that has always kept me safe, the one person who has always helped me through everything... Is the one person I can't talk to. The person I need I'm not allowed to see..."
I'm sorry, we have a duty of care, our primary roll is to make sure you're safe, the severity of these allegations-
"Have you ever done ICE?"
No...
"Well then with all due respect, how can you be the judge on someone's character when you've never experienced what it's like on that day, that mindset-"
I may never have personally experienced it but I have seen, quite closely, the effects of the substance and am very aware of it's effects. I know this is disappointing to hear, but we can't just wave a magic wand and make it all disappear, even if you retract your statement the allegations and severity of the case is so extreme and we have a duty of care to you.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 13, 2023

If a picture can tell a thousand words, but actions speak louder than words, your boombox has the traits of a compulsive liar.
I should thank you for the life lesson. When you're unsure of what someone is truly feeling, let them do what they want to do and they will show you what they want to do. You said you wanted what I wanted, but you didn't do what you said you would.
I should thank you for the life lesson. When you're unsure of what someone is truly feeling, let them do what they want to do and they will show you what they want to do. You said you wanted what I wanted, but you didn't do what you said you would.
You kept showing me who you are and what you want, when am I going to stop acting the role of the fool and believe you.
by S.W.A.L.K.J.F.P.J.P. October 13, 2023
