Mostly it's an act of being a gaylonely adult male from Philadelphia PA with bad memory who plays with little boys in a bedroom all day every day, mostly.
When you fail at something in life (eg. failing an exam or not getting a job), go home and spend an hour just standing in the shower, propping yourself up against the wall with your eyes on your feet.
Caleb knew the only thing to do after he didnt get prefect was take a failure shower.