happily depressed

hap·pi·ly
ˈhapəlē/Submit
adverb

de·pressed
dəˈprest/Submit
adjective

A person in a state of general unhappiness or despondency, but occasionally/often optimistic and appreciative about life as well as relatively okay with being unhappy.

"I know it sounds dumb, but, even though I'm far from happy, there's a lot of things I have to be happy about. I'm fine with this. Almost like I'm.. happily depressed."