The name is an ironic curse on whoever upholds. To have the name "bigcockus" is to have a rather small and or insignificant penis.
Bigcockus - Is usually inherited to those who believe themselves to be god, but in reality are really not, but in any case they will never come to terms with the fact that they are merely empty vessels with a tiny cock,
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.