I remember he
said he loves her "not for what you have and whatever" and I laugh but in the end felt "me too". What you have is truly everything to me. I've lost it all- the sound of your laughter or when you call out my name, the touch on your palms and the taste on the back of your hand and even the look of you when you look away.
Like the letters in your name, the thoughts of you oscillate perfectly in a loop. I remember getting
bored watching you brush your teeth and I remember brushing teeth to you is a boring task.
Among these blurry memories I see them clearly. Really clearly that I prefer it over
reality.
Yes I get it, all I've ever
lost is everything in my
reality and yet whatever you have left to give will be, till the end of all this, Everything to me too.
Zulfizwan