The desires for power and
money. You could play it safe and go to college, get a good
job and survive, but you're willing to live life on the edge to get your chance to fuck the world; Things you can become a slave to,
e.g. expensive clothes, cars, a big house, flashy lifestyle etc... that you're risking a lot to obtain; Dreams that cost
money.
Risking something for your loved one is not a life ill. A life ill is usually a material possession that nobody needs but everyone wants that not everyone is willing to work for.
"Go
big or go home."
Mark Zuckerberg dropped out of a prestigious college because he felt he had a chance to do something bigger, he ended up succeeding severely.
A lot of underground rappers
will fail, they know that coming up is
hard. But they do it for the chance to blow up with the unique skills they have to offer. That shit won't get you anywhere in the working class
world but unknown rappers (the ones usually coming from low income neighborhoods)
will keep risking it for a chance at a new lifestyle; chasing life ills.