Gloomy in one way but cheerful in another. Can be said of some types of heavy metal music or New Wave music and people who listen to it, including Goths. A combination of "gloomy" + "luminous".
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.