A word that describes on how much you've suffered, how much you've lost. For example, you have strict
parents. They push you too
hard to the edge of a cliff because of how much of a "
failure" you are. When you get low grades, they yell at you for not trying harder. When they yell at you, you're the victim in silent pain. If you yell back, they're the victim and punish you more for you to increase the amount of childhood trauma until you get tired and have a chance of losing emotions or committing suicide. Next is toxic friends. They ditch you on everything and say offensive jokes about you. They always make you feel left out and plan on making you suffer, making you feel insecure about yourself, and leading you to depression,
anxiety, and anger. Lastly, the so-called "lover". Every
time you are gone, they either talk shit about you or have a love affair with another. Once you give them all the
love and affection they "deserved" which they
don't, they'll leave you for someone else just because you weren't enough.
"I'm suffering so much in this
world, I can't take it anymore! I'm gonna
go jump off a
building, all of this pain isn't worth it anyway."
"real"
