You have just had an argument, or told a lie, and its very close to coming back to haunt you. This is the moment when you want to reply, but realise its too late.
This phrase can often follow:
*A stammering of non-linked words *An "Oh no I mean"
*A deep breath
*It can also be said as the person is allready leaving/gone.
"Does my butt look big in this?"
"Your buttalways looks big... oh no I mean, wait, shit."
(four girls in a bikini with big tits walks into Rob's house and he is pure and loves god)
Rob: oh shit OH GOD FUCK NO WAIT FUCK GOD NO AHH HELP IM GONNA GET FUCKING RAPED HELP FUCK NO PLEASE HELP NO, NO, NOOO- (Rob breaks out of his bedroom's window and escapes the hoeslut thot girls)
churchhurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the churchhurt that was inflicted on me as a child.