You were my favorite person in times of hard pain, and low low, my hype, my little big secret lover, someone I was looking to spend time with, you made everything to make me smile and still do, which I ap|preciate because it's not easy right now, but you also put me down so many times, made me doubt my sanity, me, who I am, this fuckin' life. Today, when I was standing in front of that door, reading, I had to ask myself 100 times, are you sure this is real? That he even exists? Are you sure this is not some kind of trauma related response from your brain, what if you're actually going crazy? What if it's just your imagination? I never doubt my sanity like this, never thought I could be this level crazy, and then I saw the soda dose and something broke a little somewhere inside. That's when I decided to leave because this can't be true. So I'm choosing to live it that way, because I can't go on like this, but if you're actually real, I just want you to know that you are a great guy, even if you don't believe it, you shouldn't doubt your looks, cause only superficial people choose other based just on that. And the more you learn about someone, and how they are, you see them as most beautiful people out there and you don't care what others think, beauty is in the eyes, in the heart, in kindness and appreciation and love. You have all of them, trust yourself a little bit more, don't put yourself down like that, because you don't deserve it.
All people make bad choices, the idea is to learn something out of them. It's all about learning and survival in this world and only the best make it far, so be a little more proud, not because of others, cause I know you can fake it, do it for you, cause it's the true. Self sabotage really is a big ass bitch I guess, I've known her for a long time and that's why it's not hard for me to understand you, but it still hurts like a bitch. .Learn to love yourself cause you really are worthy of it, that's why I chose to love you, that's why your friends to the same. Unlovable people don't get love, cause you can feel it in your soul when you meet them, believe me So I hope you choose to see yourself in a better life, cause you brought sunshine in a cold ass summer, and that's not something anyone can do.
Take care of you.For someone who made it on my top favorite list, and it's not easy. You know it.
Take care of you.For someone who made it on my top favorite list, and it's not easy. You know it.
by Im7 October 11, 2023
Something your brain does to you when you find something your heart feels it's amazing, but due to some unfortunate circumstances and bad decisions on both sides, your brain now tries to distract you from the person/thing you want so much due to past trauma so your heart won't get hurt with all this intrusive thoughts and things that you could do.
Pers1: Hey, how is the thing you have going on with that guy you like so much?
Pers2: I feel like my brain is trying to self-sabotage it, cause it gives me all this intrusive thoughts and makes me say dumb shit, so I'm working on it, cause I really don't want to lose him. I'm trying to understand my emotions and thoughts better.
Pers2: I feel like my brain is trying to self-sabotage it, cause it gives me all this intrusive thoughts and makes me say dumb shit, so I'm working on it, cause I really don't want to lose him. I'm trying to understand my emotions and thoughts better.
by Im7 October 10, 2023
Boundaries - when someone you share a lot of stuff with, knows a lot about you if not almost everything goes ahead to follow you everywhere and it s not that you don't like it, but the people around get to know a lot about you too. Things you don't like to share at all. Like who you are in your private life, who you love, who would you like to fuck, who makes you horny and how or why and all other stuff that should remain rather private, doesn't matter if I don't care about their opinions or not. I think that there are some things who should remain strictly between partners. Especially if you are quite private with your life and don't like talking about yourself with almost anyone. Opening up with someone shouldn't give them the right to open these to everyone else.
L: I wouldn't care if the whole world would know about us but there are some boundaries that shouldn't be crossed
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by Im7 October 09, 2023
It's when, after a lot o struggles with a Person, after all the reassurance, the understanding, the love, the promises you've been giving they still choose to hurt you, telling you they are ready when they are not despite your promise to wait until it's sure. 🙂
So even if you know you love them, you have to give up on them because they keep on hurting you, and sometimes it's ok to choose yourself, so you can keep on fighting for survival, no matter how bad it hurts.
So even if you know you love them, you have to give up on them because they keep on hurting you, and sometimes it's ok to choose yourself, so you can keep on fighting for survival, no matter how bad it hurts.
Exthatgirl: I'm giving up on you my R., because everytime you're facing the decision to hurt me, you choose to do it and even though I understand you've never been showed real love, so you don't really know how to do it, I wanted to be the person you'd learn with. To heal our hearts, to fight together, but you choose to push me away, again.
by Im7 October 11, 2023
When someone you care about goes out of their way to make you feel dumb, used, some kind of puppet made for everyone else's entertainment. This person that you are giving alot for and to, that actually throws everything out the window but not only sharing your private moments with the world, their friends, anyone out there whatever, they also treat you like an object, they get to manipulate as they wish, making you ask yourself how honest they have been, or if anything they ever said it's actually real. So you feel all kinds of betrayed, and can only think about ripping their limb out 1by 1 cause that's how you heart fells.
by Im7 October 21, 2023
Something you said to someone you deeply care about in hopes that they'll manage to get some sleep, because they don't sleep enough, so you get worried.
Babe, I hope you can rest a little. Imagine I'm holding you in my arms ❤️ I want us to be okay. I'm sorry if I misunderstood the fact that you're already out. 🙂 xoxo love, sleep well
by Im7 October 10, 2023