Yeseng means first lady, someone named yeseng would be very confident and independent but insecured at the same time, she can also slap you if you mess with her friends
Yeseng was also the name of the tai ahom king's first daughter
churchhurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the churchhurt that was inflicted on me as a child.