nawayoi

literally: "drunk on rope"
It's a condition where you seem to become completely intoxicated,
by the extascy of letting go of control.
After the rush of Adrenalin,
the Anxiety over submitting yourself into someones hands vanishes.
The mind goes blank, the body is floating on anticipation, and
the rope feels like the extension of the lover's hand.

Even though it was my own body, without a boundary it was like i'm not
even here, I wonder if I was nawayoi