Im not sure what it is yet, but i know ill find it. I know it can get pretty shitty at times, but it will get better. i dont believe in
love at first sight. if that was a real thing, we would all be divorced at least 6 times by now. the truth is that people usually get together for reasons other then love, yes they may be into one another, but their are numerous reasons people could just be together. ex.-money, popularity, and tons of other shit that makes me depressed. so for godsake, stop looking on
urban dictionary and
get out there