Building a
fire was hard to the
girl, she had always had to try hard at life and common sense, she said. She always felt
like she had to give over one hundred percent at everything (and that everyone else did also), especially sports (but none of this came from any authority figure or family member actually instilling this idea in her at a young age). She also thought she had to make everyone else's life difficult in the process. She always made it look
like she didn't know what the fuck she was doing, and expected everyone else to be the same way, thinking of it as honesty (and expecting credit for honesty). How can anybody
like someone who doesn't know what the fuck they are doing? When she wasn't busy making it look
like she didn't know what she was doing, she was busy trying to make it look
like someone else didnt know what they were doing.