(1) a wannabe high. lol
like when you try to get high off some kind of marker, lets face it it doesn't fucking work that way. you're not necessary high but you're not necessary sane. YOU'RE JUST BEAT
to beat as in hurt, to beat as in rape, and to beat as in sports and rudely and visously beating you wife in a (what started out as) a ordinary game of tennis in which you DESTORYED HER WITHOUT MERCY!!