To be back on one'
s bullshit is to regress to a former state of being, often a rather unhealthy and self-destructive state. It implies falling back into one's old ways and habits after a brief period of "self-reinvention".
Being back on one's bullshit is not necessarily a bad thing per se. Perhaps that
person had come to terms with their quirks, absurdities, and insatiable/irrational desires. No longer do they try to repress those self-destructing behaviours and compulsions in hopes of becoming better, because they know that one
day they will eventually give in; they can
run but they can'
t hide from their
true sordid selves. In other
words, they continue to seek self-improvement and strive towards self-mastery, but they don'
t try to repress their former bullshit. Besides, that bullshit defines you and who you are and you can'
t feel like "you" without it.
Jennie: Jimmy wth?? What's up with those cross-dressing pics you sent me last night, I thought you had already
broken out of that paraphilia of yours
Jimmy:
Well what can I say, I'm back on my bullshit, and I don'
t intend on hiding it anymore.
