It is the
deep longing for the "honeymoon phase", missing the
pink sticky notes, the poems, and the feeling of being chosen ... while currently stuck behind walls of silence and stubborn
pride.
I miss the energy we had in the beginning. I miss the urgency of your replies, the way you made me feel seen, and how much effort you put into being with me.
I find myself thinking about the
pink sticky notes, the poems, and how vocal you were about your feelings.
I miss hearing you say that you couldn'
t get me off your mind. You used to make me feel incredibly special and beautiful. Can we find our way back to that? I miss feeling chosen. I miss when it felt easy.
Right now, it feels like:
Two hearts so close, yet walls intervene,
Words go unspoken, feelings unseen.
A glance could heal us, a word could restart,
But
stubborn pride keeps tearing us apart.
I'm here always
in your hurting I linger
refusing to leave, loving you through
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