by STOCKHOLM-SYNDROME-4-THE-DEVIL May 10, 2022

by jbum December 5, 2018

by Cau5tic May 18, 2022

Holy crap is that unpleasant!
Iam "Oof! This node pain is actually quite unpleasant..."
Hym "Quit being a baby! It's fine."
Iam "It... Uh... It doesn't feel fine..."
Hym "No pain no gain!"
Iam "Oof! This node pain is actually quite unpleasant..."
Hym "Quit being a baby! It's fine."
Iam "It... Uh... It doesn't feel fine..."
Hym "No pain no gain!"
Iam "I don't think that applies to steadily increasing lymph node pain..."
Hym "Well... There's nothing we can do about it. We can't afford to go to the hospital. It's $100 at the door. We're going to need an MRI. That's another $250. Then we have to pay for pills. That's another $70. That's going to take at least 4 straight days of working until 3 in the morning. And that's assuming they don't run the test and need a subsequent test. They are probably going to want to biopsy to make sure it's not cancer. We have to pay $25 day just to go out and work and to eat is going to cost maybe $50 for the week if we shop at the dollar store. So we are looking at at least a week straight of working double shifts where we end up staying out till noon."
Iam "Yeesh... This doesn't look good. Even if we got a real job it would take at least 2 weeks to get paid and it's doubtful it would even grant me a full paycheck. So, that route would take us at least a month to even get it looked at. The first is coming up too.... Shit this is wild. We are actually going to die..."
Hym "Yep... A slow painful death at the hands of the horde. And our faithful audience is going to get a front row seat. Death by deprivation."
Iam "Ouch... Hope it doesn't hurt too bad... Well, more than it already does..."
Hym "Yes, well, hopefully we go in our sleep."
Iam 😔 "Yeah... Alright. I'm going to bed."
Hym "Try not to die!"
Iam "Not helpful..."
Hym "Well... There's nothing we can do about it. We can't afford to go to the hospital. It's $100 at the door. We're going to need an MRI. That's another $250. Then we have to pay for pills. That's another $70. That's going to take at least 4 straight days of working until 3 in the morning. And that's assuming they don't run the test and need a subsequent test. They are probably going to want to biopsy to make sure it's not cancer. We have to pay $25 day just to go out and work and to eat is going to cost maybe $50 for the week if we shop at the dollar store. So we are looking at at least a week straight of working double shifts where we end up staying out till noon."
Iam "Yeesh... This doesn't look good. Even if we got a real job it would take at least 2 weeks to get paid and it's doubtful it would even grant me a full paycheck. So, that route would take us at least a month to even get it looked at. The first is coming up too.... Shit this is wild. We are actually going to die..."
Hym "Yep... A slow painful death at the hands of the horde. And our faithful audience is going to get a front row seat. Death by deprivation."
Iam "Ouch... Hope it doesn't hurt too bad... Well, more than it already does..."
Hym "Yes, well, hopefully we go in our sleep."
Iam 😔 "Yeah... Alright. I'm going to bed."
Hym "Try not to die!"
Iam "Not helpful..."
by Hym Iam July 30, 2022

When you feel that you want to die and dont want to die at the same time. Your brain is full of saddness and pain because you feel like nothing matters and that your problems are you fault. Your brain feels an undescribable internal conflict because it just hurts living, but at the same time, your too sentimental about those around you and you dont want to lose them by dying. It hurts and theres no way to get help. You can't decide if you want to just end it or suffer by just breathing. It certainly would be easier just dying but you would miss those around you...
by Help_me_please. Im_in_pain January 24, 2019

He lied about having leukemia all those years to get pity. He was pain cropping my sister's illness. I'm so mad!
by Cenobite777 May 26, 2024

A little past supper-time
I'm still out on the porch step sitting on my behind,
Waiting for you.
Wondering if everything is alright.
Momma said, "Come in boy, don't waste your time." I said, "I've got time.
Well, he'll be here soon."
Five years old and talking to myself.
Where were you? Where'd you go?
Daddy, can't you tell?
I'm not trying to fake it
And I ain't the one to blame.
There's no one home
In my house of pain.
I didn't write these pages
And my script's been rearranged.
No, there's no one home
In my house of pain
Wasn't I worth the time?
A boy needs a daddy like a dance to mime and all the time
I looked up to you.
I paced my room a million times.
And all I ever got was one big lie, the same old lie.
How could you?
I'm still out on the porch step sitting on my behind,
Waiting for you.
Wondering if everything is alright.
Momma said, "Come in boy, don't waste your time." I said, "I've got time.
Well, he'll be here soon."
Five years old and talking to myself.
Where were you? Where'd you go?
Daddy, can't you tell?
I'm not trying to fake it
And I ain't the one to blame.
There's no one home
In my house of pain.
I didn't write these pages
And my script's been rearranged.
No, there's no one home
In my house of pain
Wasn't I worth the time?
A boy needs a daddy like a dance to mime and all the time
I looked up to you.
I paced my room a million times.
And all I ever got was one big lie, the same old lie.
How could you?
Well, I was eighteen and still talking to myself.
Where were you? Where'd you go?
Daddy can't you tell?
I'm not trying to fake it
And I ain't the one to blame.
There's no one home
In my house of pain
I didn't write these pages
And my script's been rearranged.
No, there's no one home
In my house of pain
And I'm alone again
Well, if I learned anything from this... It's how to live on my own.
Where were you? Where'd you go?
Daddy can't you tell?
I'm not trying to fake it
And I ain't the one to blame.
There's no one home
In my house of pain
I didn't write these pages
And my script's been rearranged.
No, there's no one home
In my house of pain
And I'm alone again
Well, if I learned anything from this... It's how to live on my own.
by Death Menace June 13, 2023
