She was too serious looking and sounding for someone who had always had the spirit/soul of a clown. And she was also too
argumentative and willing to act on violent negative impulses she didn't acknowledge having for someone that was a clown deep down, (the kind of clown that sets things on fire, sinks a hammer into the back of someone's skull, or shoots/has somebody shot dead) which isn't really funny. For a natural comedian and lover, she was mighty hateful and serious looking/sounding though she claimed to be about love, light, and hope rather than darkness, hate, and despair/
desperation (to win at
everything). So the world continued to look at mostly males or other people that seemed to be more suspicious than her, even if it was getting harder and harder to find people that were.