She was too serious looking and sounding for someone who had always had the spirit/soul of a clown. And she was also too argumentative and willing to
act on violent negative impulses she didn't acknowledge having for someone that was a clown deep down, (the kind of clown that sets things on
fire, sinks a hammer into the back of someone's skull, or shoots/has somebody shot dead) which isn't really funny. For a natural comedian and lover, she was mighty hateful and serious looking/sounding though she claimed to be about
love, light, and
hope rather than darkness, hate, and despair/desperation (to win at everything). So the world continued to look at mostly males or other
people that seemed to be more suspicious than her, even if it was getting harder and harder to find
people that were.