1. I
never hated you. I couldn’t. That’s why I was very careful with not leaving any disrespectful codes. But I knew when I was keeping a distance, I was hurting you. It
hurt me so much daily. it pushed me forward to do things to finish what I had to. Recently, you thought I was playing with your
heart. I was not. I am sorry for both hurting you and making you feel
played. It was not my intention. When things were not making much progress, I took a promise to myself that I would be completely
done with my past life. Then I can express my love without the past lingering at the back of my mind. It was a sad day when I realized how you felt like you were played. You of all
people should know I am quite straight forward in expressing how I feel (may be not in person. It’s
hard when
people all around). Just know that I
don’t feel guilty in loving you. I was confused why this love in me. But never felt guilty.
Yes, I doubted your love before. That is when I was in a bad place without sleep and couldn’t trust any love because of thought of getting heartbroken even from friends. I do feel sad thinking we cannot spend life together. When you told about your new phase in your life, I had mixed feelings. why life is keeping us more separate than it already is. I accept that. But it cannot tell me to stop loving you. 6684
