When you are so
depressed that it's your only way of escape. Sure you can get pleasure from it, but it's temporary. And then you get even more
depressed. Like cigarettes, It begins as a very fun and new and exciting process, given that you just discovered your puberty. But over the years, you just get tired of it.
You get tired over it and want to stop this once and for all. But you can't. You can't because it's just so addicting. It's basically self harm but a lot, lot less painful and harmful. But its still tiring. You can't stop. You regret ever starting it. But it's your only way of escape, from all your pain, suffering, and tiredness. Ever time you masturbate, you feel absolutely ashamed, pathetic, miserable and like an absolute piece of
shit.
You start by feeling horny as fuck, either you probably open p*rn or just create pictures in your head of whatever fetish you have. I mostly have a fetish of
female neck movement, and (partly) NATURAL and NOT FORCED
female hiccups and burps. Enough of that. After that you hold your cock or shove in pussy (depends if you're a boy or girl. I am of the former.) And then you pleasure yourself as if you're having sex, but you actually
don't. Many use lubricants like lotion or oil, or soap when you're in
shower. but I personally prefer
dry. I mostly masturbate during shower and before sleep. It's shitty, really.