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Sorry I imagine I won't make much sense tonight.
The numbers.. there was 2 at work that I thought were her. I thought in response to mine. They don't make any sense now either. Odd other ways that I thought she was that now.. make me think I'm just insane. Can't imagine how she feels about me now.
What made you say talking to the stars? Iv already written for her there.. no idea if she saw any of them.
How is that all you have?
Reading one of your older posts the other night made me smile.. never noticed it was written like it was Yoda speaking.. she did that a few times. The one about m&ms too.. I bought her those a lot. I miss the smallest things about her
I have a cat. My little black shadow who constantly wants to play fetch or bite and lick me. He's soft in the head I think. Have you got any?
Career choice.. media?
Funny about the not talking to him too.. it was so odd, we almost avoided each other but I could still feel something. Then out of nowhere would just be some incredible moment that didn't feel real. I don't think she realised how nervous she made me, but god she was SO bold sometimes, I absolutely loved it
The numbers.. there was 2 at work that I thought were her. I thought in response to mine. They don't make any sense now either. Odd other ways that I thought she was that now.. make me think I'm just insane. Can't imagine how she feels about me now.
What made you say talking to the stars? Iv already written for her there.. no idea if she saw any of them.
How is that all you have?
Reading one of your older posts the other night made me smile.. never noticed it was written like it was Yoda speaking.. she did that a few times. The one about m&ms too.. I bought her those a lot. I miss the smallest things about her
I have a cat. My little black shadow who constantly wants to play fetch or bite and lick me. He's soft in the head I think. Have you got any?
Career choice.. media?
Funny about the not talking to him too.. it was so odd, we almost avoided each other but I could still feel something. Then out of nowhere would just be some incredible moment that didn't feel real. I don't think she realised how nervous she made me, but god she was SO bold sometimes, I absolutely loved it
I forgot.. you mentioned me calling her the best.. I actually always used to tell her she was awesome..
To the most awesome girl among them ✨
To the most awesome girl among them ✨
by 4_u September 1, 2023
I realised the air thing after.. told you my head wasn't working 😒
You are very caring.. I'm grateful for the quiet comfort it gives me. I can't believe you do understand me, or that you see that.. I don't interact with anyone on this level. Yet you seem able to look ahead of me
I hope you feel that you can speak to me in the same way
Still confused by your spider analogy though 🤔
You come over witchy rather regularly you know. You have a very deep spiritual vibe..
Come on.. you've seen how I write, you KNOW I can't stop loving her. There is no question of that, ever
I'm just scared of what being wrong could be doing to either one of us. Id hate to be bothering her in any way and not know
I know. The feeling is indescribable.. I didn't believe or know love like this was possible. I so hope you're right that the story has a lot further to go. Super strange we both post about our lives as stories bein written today too 🧐
I just wish I knew something, anything, for certain that can't be taken for once
You are very caring.. I'm grateful for the quiet comfort it gives me. I can't believe you do understand me, or that you see that.. I don't interact with anyone on this level. Yet you seem able to look ahead of me
I hope you feel that you can speak to me in the same way
Still confused by your spider analogy though 🤔
You come over witchy rather regularly you know. You have a very deep spiritual vibe..
Come on.. you've seen how I write, you KNOW I can't stop loving her. There is no question of that, ever
I'm just scared of what being wrong could be doing to either one of us. Id hate to be bothering her in any way and not know
I know. The feeling is indescribable.. I didn't believe or know love like this was possible. I so hope you're right that the story has a lot further to go. Super strange we both post about our lives as stories bein written today too 🧐
I just wish I knew something, anything, for certain that can't be taken for once
Had a bad fall as a teen an it's only now almost fixed. Just never knew how much it was limiting me physically it's like I've been chained up the entire time and they're finally about to come off
PT is important.. I was already strong an had decent stamina but now.. I'm reaching limits I didn't know I had.. an still pushing further. I'm actually excited see what I can do once I'm there
PT is important.. I was already strong an had decent stamina but now.. I'm reaching limits I didn't know I had.. an still pushing further. I'm actually excited see what I can do once I'm there
by 4_u October 9, 2023
Sorry again for the rant.. what's annoying me is, she isn't doing any of this. It's not how I truly feel. It's my own mind playing tricks on me cos of how confused I've been.
You just keep kicking my ass yeah? You're helping more than ever recently..
I don't think your spider has visited me.. he may not be safe here though with the cat patrolling! Iv thought a few times of getting to see her bond with my little shadow for the first time :)
Stop bawking then, you're so bold.. I guarantee you have nothing to fear. Speaking of chickens, his hybrid animal.. wasn't the cockaroo was it? The website and need for research is still perplexing me.. I can't really fit an animal to her though.. she has characteristics personality wise.. but I wanted some visual comparison..
Strange memory, she used to have a profile pic of her looking out out at the ocean.. seeing her hair in the breeze from behind.. wondering how amazing her gaze looks.. those perfect.. deep blue eyes reflecting the infinite ocean..
It's eerily similar to a character in a game that makes me think of her.. even down to the perspective of the picture and looking out over the water.. I don't know still where I stand on fate or divinity.. but some things about us.. feel SO meant to be
You just keep kicking my ass yeah? You're helping more than ever recently..
I don't think your spider has visited me.. he may not be safe here though with the cat patrolling! Iv thought a few times of getting to see her bond with my little shadow for the first time :)
Stop bawking then, you're so bold.. I guarantee you have nothing to fear. Speaking of chickens, his hybrid animal.. wasn't the cockaroo was it? The website and need for research is still perplexing me.. I can't really fit an animal to her though.. she has characteristics personality wise.. but I wanted some visual comparison..
Strange memory, she used to have a profile pic of her looking out out at the ocean.. seeing her hair in the breeze from behind.. wondering how amazing her gaze looks.. those perfect.. deep blue eyes reflecting the infinite ocean..
It's eerily similar to a character in a game that makes me think of her.. even down to the perspective of the picture and looking out over the water.. I don't know still where I stand on fate or divinity.. but some things about us.. feel SO meant to be
You're so lucky to have some physical reminder.. I wish those few times I thought she'd written back to me, that I'd taken the sheet from work.. setting my watch and having her picture are the best I've got :( I'm glad they were happy tears too.. I know that would seriously make my heart flutter
I should listen to you more.. I've been told that before about being alone, it never meant anything..
But.. I believe you.. and you do help, don't ever feel like you're not, your words lift me every single day, even if sometimes I don't understand fully straight away :)
I hope you know.. I don't exaggerate
I can't explain the meaning your words have had for me
The days you've saved me from the punishment I inflict on myself
The love you've shared that's kept my heart beating
Maybe someday.. I can explain to you properly
I should listen to you more.. I've been told that before about being alone, it never meant anything..
But.. I believe you.. and you do help, don't ever feel like you're not, your words lift me every single day, even if sometimes I don't understand fully straight away :)
I hope you know.. I don't exaggerate
I can't explain the meaning your words have had for me
The days you've saved me from the punishment I inflict on myself
The love you've shared that's kept my heart beating
Maybe someday.. I can explain to you properly
by 4_u October 1, 2023
I have no idea if you see these J.... My heart tells me you do.
God I fucking hope so.
I love you more than you will ever know, more than I know how to express.
Something is keeping me anchored to you. I don't know what, I just feel it.
Staring at the ceiling.. wishing I could feel your breath on my neck. The dreams.. are nothing in comparison to what our reality would be. Just the thought of us in real.. close proximity.. blows my mind..
I don't know what our future holds.
But Il wait, for you, always.
My love.
God I fucking hope so.
I love you more than you will ever know, more than I know how to express.
Something is keeping me anchored to you. I don't know what, I just feel it.
Staring at the ceiling.. wishing I could feel your breath on my neck. The dreams.. are nothing in comparison to what our reality would be. Just the thought of us in real.. close proximity.. blows my mind..
I don't know what our future holds.
But Il wait, for you, always.
My love.
by 4_u August 24, 2023
Being unsure was bad.. but I didn't expect actually knowing would be so much worse.
I feel like something has drained every bit of strength I had remaining.
I was wrong about messaging you
Wrong about the response I expected
And now your words.. they kept me ensnared for so long..
Wrong about those too
Too blind to see the obvious..
If you ever.. see these.. I'm sorry..
For how I must have made you feel.. for so long 😔
And just.. for being me.
I know, still, that my heart won't change..
So I have to just let it ache for as long as it takes
I feel like something has drained every bit of strength I had remaining.
I was wrong about messaging you
Wrong about the response I expected
And now your words.. they kept me ensnared for so long..
Wrong about those too
Too blind to see the obvious..
If you ever.. see these.. I'm sorry..
For how I must have made you feel.. for so long 😔
And just.. for being me.
I know, still, that my heart won't change..
So I have to just let it ache for as long as it takes
by 4_u August 31, 2023
I wasn't sure all day if I'd post. It's going to sound really stupid but Iv been sad at just the thought of having to say goodbye here. I never got to say that to her cos I never believed I'd have to
Why did I message her that night. I fucked up everything. Well.. if I ever actually had anything
I don't want to say bye here, but I understand if I'm too much to deal with. It's no excuse I know.. but I can't explain the ways she made me feel.. MAKES me feel.. that still hasn't left me. I don't think it will for a very.. very long time
Why did I message her that night. I fucked up everything. Well.. if I ever actually had anything
I don't want to say bye here, but I understand if I'm too much to deal with. It's no excuse I know.. but I can't explain the ways she made me feel.. MAKES me feel.. that still hasn't left me. I don't think it will for a very.. very long time
I'm not sure of anything
Other than I can't just close the book on the only chapter of my life I felt like I was writing for myself
I don't know if you can understand that, you seemed to have understood me better than anyone
Im sorry.. and I truly.. hope you find your love
I hope to read your words again too
Goodnight ✨
Other than I can't just close the book on the only chapter of my life I felt like I was writing for myself
I don't know if you can understand that, you seemed to have understood me better than anyone
Im sorry.. and I truly.. hope you find your love
I hope to read your words again too
Goodnight ✨
by 4_u October 6, 2023
My blue.. seems to have left today
This time.. I feel it might stay that way
Another day, and I have yet more rhymes..
I feel only my heart controlling these times
We both have changed.. grown with this love in each other
I'm obsessed with the feeling my soul belongs to another..
I don't think you realise.. the ways that I want you
The times you've set my soul on fire.. made me come unglued..
Just my words.. will never be enough to show ..
How much I love you.. for finding my smile, when you knew I was low
It's more than that.. we've shared our emotions for so long
You've given such a deeper meaning to so many songs..
So, no matter what, Il keep trying to write
Stare at the ceiling and picture you.. like I do every night
Just remember.. whatever happens.. if for ANY reason you need me..
Il be there.. in an instant.. Il be whoever you need me to be
Your protector.. your lover.. shoulder to lean on.. and friend
I promise you.. there's nothing, that together, we cant mend
No matter the ache.. the wait.. my everything I will give
Because I love the way I see us now.. the life I've seen us live..
So until the day, that I can wake, beside the one that truly knows me..
Il stand tall.. Il follow only my heart.. for my one and only..
my 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
This time.. I feel it might stay that way
Another day, and I have yet more rhymes..
I feel only my heart controlling these times
We both have changed.. grown with this love in each other
I'm obsessed with the feeling my soul belongs to another..
I don't think you realise.. the ways that I want you
The times you've set my soul on fire.. made me come unglued..
Just my words.. will never be enough to show ..
How much I love you.. for finding my smile, when you knew I was low
It's more than that.. we've shared our emotions for so long
You've given such a deeper meaning to so many songs..
So, no matter what, Il keep trying to write
Stare at the ceiling and picture you.. like I do every night
Just remember.. whatever happens.. if for ANY reason you need me..
Il be there.. in an instant.. Il be whoever you need me to be
Your protector.. your lover.. shoulder to lean on.. and friend
I promise you.. there's nothing, that together, we cant mend
No matter the ache.. the wait.. my everything I will give
Because I love the way I see us now.. the life I've seen us live..
So until the day, that I can wake, beside the one that truly knows me..
Il stand tall.. Il follow only my heart.. for my one and only..
my 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
Thought I'd try your style of the rhyme being incomplete.. I like it.. though I'm noticing another thing you said.. rhyming is starting to creep into my normal thoughts!
I like that writing like this feels so natural :) never dreamed I'd meet anyone that bought this out of me
I've said a lot of the ways Iv thought of her.. but when I said about knowing she was safe.. there was a crash so close to hers last night.. I instantly panicked not knowing she was ok.. Iv always been a protective person of those I love.. but for her.. I would go through anything.. didn't realise how protective I could actually feel 😳
But GOD did I enjoy writing that one.. I'm absolutely on fire with these all of a sudden 😜
I like that writing like this feels so natural :) never dreamed I'd meet anyone that bought this out of me
I've said a lot of the ways Iv thought of her.. but when I said about knowing she was safe.. there was a crash so close to hers last night.. I instantly panicked not knowing she was ok.. Iv always been a protective person of those I love.. but for her.. I would go through anything.. didn't realise how protective I could actually feel 😳
But GOD did I enjoy writing that one.. I'm absolutely on fire with these all of a sudden 😜
by 4_u October 3, 2023