It wasn't ever the retard. You just want to be able to invoke him to say that I'm not better than everyone. So you are doing what you do to retards and giving him more credit than he deserves UPTO AND INCLUDING credit that belongs to me.
Hym "No I am that guy from earlier. You want me to do something I don't have to do and you are going to pay a price for trying to make me to it."
church hurt is where you experience a degree of distance, pain, or judgement from your church community. Essentially, you are just unable to “find your place”. This is prevalent in the Christian community, but can be extended to other religions.
Now that I am an adult I am beginning to heal from the church hurt that was inflicted on me as a child.