Worst day of my life , year later , the hole is just deeper . U took my heart can I have it back please Eunice
It's been a year , u might read this u might not Ashley.
After a year this connection is
killing me . I know u feel it and see it . I saw the way I look at me last time I saw u . I saw u bend over in the stair . I saw u look at me .
You know I m all for you . I read so much in ID I honestly.think its you . That's how fuck up I m because I m love with you .
I really wish I wasn't . I never wanted this . To love
you like this . I did but
not like this , I never imagined this. If I can go back and redo it . I would never write that.
926 I don't know maybe I would just be there seeing u all sexy but
everyone else does so it's not a big deal .
Like ur just a regular girl , I try so hard to find reasons not to feel this n yet I still do .
I don't even know why I m on writing.
But it's the only way to get it out . I go back in read . I tear up and hate my self cause I like I should be past this age where I fall in love with dream
I don't want this anymore.. I really don't .
I don't want to wake thinking about u . I don't want to go all day telling my self not to go online ,she didn't even get on her self. I hate that for a year every time I see u I love u more . I want to be like the other guys ur with . I want to have the strength to look at u and not feel anything.
When ur around me u say and do things . That say u love me and think about me . If ur not going to confess then stop. Just stop please . I m trying so hard not to love you